My first week of school is over. And let me tell you, for a four week class, it's only just beginning. I am among some amazing women (and 1 amazing man). I am, indeed, the oldest, and I dare say, least academically trained, in the cohort.
We have done a week's worth of reading each night, and I am being indoctrinated to thinking like an applied developmental scientist. My advisor assures me that she'll make a researcher out of me. I believe it's true. To some extent anyway. :)
Yesterday, we had lunch with the Assistant Dean. It was at this point that I realized my life is never going to be the same. My entire adult life thus far has been spent "dabbling" in educational things. I've learned as I've gone, because one can't help but learn from the experiences they care about. But now I'm being trained by the leaders of American Education. These are the people whose names are in the studies. They are on the front lines, learning what works, setting standards. And they are the ones teaching me.
From whom much is given, much will be expected. And if there is no other word that describes my experience thus far, "much" definitely fits. It's a lot of work. And I'm expected to do it well--"thoughtfully" is the word my advisor uses a lot. So I'm thoughtful (as is typical for me), but in a totally new direction than ever before.
This morning, I needed normal. So instead of cracking open a journal article, I cracked open my own journal and Bible. I randomly turned to Psalm 111, which ends with these words:
"Fear of the Lord is the foundation of true wisdom. All who obey his commandments will grow in wisdom."
I will grow in a lot of knowledge over the course of the next 2 years. But the fact remains that without setting my eyes on my God, and obeying HIS commands, my knowledge will never be full and my understandings will fail to be transformative. It is the knowledge of him that creates my thirst for academia and "Clout" (if you want to call it that) to make a difference. It is His wisdom that spurs me on to utilize the wisdom of the world for the betterment of people He's created...especially the ones who are powerless.
And these are some of my thoughts--one week in.
For now, I'm going to embrace an entire morning of normal (berry-picking, swim lessons, showering) while my journal articles, scholarly critiques and discussion questions sit on the backburner, simmering just enough that I can hear the pot lid jiggling, until this afternoon. Have a great weekend!